Chapter 2
Chapter 2
Is My Internet Boyfriend a Pedophile?
Me, being the attention whore that I am, needs to find a way to promote my diary and what better way than taking a shot at literotica, which after hours of getting off to porn on the iPod touch seems simple now with the right inspiration, that and I need a break from Kagome and Sesshoumaru fanfiction that is getting me nowhere in life.
I thought Literotica would be filled with snobby hopeful writers like Dokuga has, but I finally found what I was looking for when I entered the chat and was given cyber request from almost ten guys right away. I felt overwhelmed and exited out of that chat, but now I know where to go when I get horny.
Cybering is nothing new to me. Believe it or not I’ve been doing it since I was 12 and pretty much learned about sex through roleplaying with older men. Of course I said I was 18, but they should have figured out by how I asked “what is the ‘sweet spot’?” and my constant mispellings that I was a child. To make it worse I found a lot of cybers on the chatroom at sailormoon.com and once again I lied about my age, but come on…it was a sailormoon website, pedophile central if you think about it.
Speaking of pedophile I don’t understand what in the fuck is up with this lolicon business. According to Wikipedia Lolicon is art that blends childlike characteristics with erotic undertone, which to me sounds like kiddie porn in cartoon form. I’m usually not a prude or anything, but the internet boy that I’ve been obsessing about has expressed his interest in lolicon a number of times as well as made me roleplay as lolis before. Finally after seeing his collect of 300+ loli pics I decided to get us into a new rp, because it kind of grosses me out. It’s not child pornography because a child isn’t in danger, but it seems like it would be a gateway into thinking of children that way.
I corresponded with my Skype friends about it and they say I’m overreacting and that many guys have the fetish, but then again all my Skype friends are 15 and are too busy hiding their loli porn from their parents.
Fanfiction was always a good way to advertise my various social networks and I plan to do the same with Literotica so I made my twitter @ashamedsitch which sounds middle eastern somehow when it is suppose to be the blog username but whateves Twitter hates on character length no matter what. I hate it though as I am registering things such as Twitter and I have to type the contents of a picture to prove that I’m not a robot, which in no way prevents Twitter spam, and I can never make out the characters. That damn flypen toy can translate sloppy 3rd grade handwriting into text so all these damn things accomplish is pissing me off.
Chapter 1
Chapter 1
I Have Every Right to be Ashamed, Let’s Start There
Today I finally got the iPod Touch and I used it to pester a man that I will one day marry just so I can lose my virginity and not die alone.
I am fat therefore will never be desired or taken seriously hence why most of my socializing is done on the Internet where I have been using my friend’s Facebook pictures when my visual is requested, which resulted in me shaming myself in the pokemon chatrooms. Yes the pokemon chatrooms, a place of innonence you would assume, but nope I stirred up trouble there using my fake identity and making too many male friends. Why did I even care what they thought? They were all like 16 while I sit here as a 20 year old, but still it had an impact when I carelessly led one of my friends to my facebook page where he revealed the real me.
I was humiliated, but I wouldn’t leave. It would only be worse if I left because of their judgements, and maybe it was for the best because it gave me a new boost of confidence. Mike, a guy that I roleplay with, had a facebook so I added him telling him that he would not like what he would see, but he told me I was beauitful and that he loved me. This is the most I’ve ever made it with a guy so of course I will do whatever I can to hold his attention including making a video of me naked in the bathtub pretending water is cum all so he will buy me a sex toy.
I’m getting the dolphin, because I won’t get much privacy in my dorm and this one is waterproof and meant for the shower. I’m just scared about doing too much with it and getting addicted, but hey sexual activities burn calories.
Right now I’m playing 20 questions with him. He wants to know how many children I want while I’m asking what his favorite animal is.
So it’s 2010 and time for the New Years resolution that I usually give up three days in, but I have to get my shit together.
1. Stick to the diet that I made up
2. Get up at 6:30 am everyday to get ready for class
3. Get my hair and makeup done so I don’t look like an ape.
4. Keep my pussy shaved and well maintained.
Omg I just found some really hot porn on the iPhone. I didn’t pay for it so it was all small clips, but it was all I needed for I got the jest of the storyline. I stayed to the hot married couple seduce young women for threesomes section and was quickly turned on. I thought I would be one of those girls turned off about giving guys oral but the images of the two women getting pet while lovingly sucking on the guys cock really made my vagina react.
I think one porn clip a day will be healthy for me it’s just so hard to touch myself in the dorm because I breath so heavy and move around a lot, and I hate doing it in the bathroom for tile turns me off.
I can’t imagine eating pussy but I do enjoy the smell-
Okay enough about that. I have a cute little app that sends me a random pic in exchange for one I send so here is the random pic of the day:
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It’s two horses I guess pretty cool I guess photography wise.
Nothing good on TV tonight and my mom’s boyfriend is trying to wake her up just so they can watch the ball drop. Is Dick Clark still alive? I hope they don’t make that poor man count to ten.
Wow look the tags for my first entry is fat, pokemon, porn, threesome. You don’t get any better than that.
Though the whole purpose of this blog is to Use as a diary that I will be motivated to used I’m still going to make a Twitter for it- wow autocorrect knew to capitilize my Twitter the future is here- linking my facebook to my Twitter is the dumbest thing I ever did- or adding my dad to facebook was the dumbest thing.
He would be proud to know that I use fake pictures to hit on teenage pokemon players while getting off to porn clips.
I hear fireworks outside seeing as how it’s new years eve, but that sound is no longer happy since two weeks ago I was minding my own business walking and listening to some nightwish when a van slowed down. Living in the hilljack area of Huntington I am already weary of my sorroundings, but I wasn’t expecting for them to light a firecracker and throw it right at me.
I blame it on the inbreeding.
I’m not going to be one of those girls though that dream about moving to NYC or LA to be free of small town living all the while they prove how liberal they are by fucking and marrying at a young age hence wind up stuck here forever. I know what these bitches are up to, I have the Facebook. I know the huge cities are too crowded and the last thing they need is me, so I’ll just go where all the black guys are.
That must be a myth that a black dick is a fat girl’s best friend because not one of the whole three black men I’ve met in my life has looked at me twice.
I’ll probably wind up moving to Virginia to become Mike’s sex slave and live happily ever after. He already invited me over for my summer break so he can rape me because I do indeed like my rapes well planned before it’s executed upon me. And who needs years of dating to end with a diamond ring when I can have a vibrartor shipped to me through adamandeve.com. Maybe there a jobs in Virgina so I can actaully use my degree I’m working to get.
Well time to upload and enjoy the rest of my night. My first blog post comes at midnight on the new year if a new decade. Sweet.
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